27 November 2019

#قطة_شرودنغر #Schrödingers_Cat


أنْظُرُ لَها فَتَنظُر هي لي...
أينما ذَهَبتُ عَيناها تُلاحِقُني...
فَتَخطرُ قِطَّةَ شرودِنغَر بِمُخَيِّلَتي...
وَ أَتَسائَلُ...
هَل هِيَ فِعْلاً تُراقِبُني؟
ماذا يَحدُثُ في الثُقْبِ الأسْوَدِ؟
و عِندَما لا أنْظُرُ لِها...
فَهل تَسْتَمِرُّ هِيَ بِمُراقَبَتي؟
مَتى سيحين مَوعِدُ نَوْمي؟
و هَل هِيَ فِعْلاً تَنْظُر لي؟
نومي اللَّيلي...أو الأبَدي؟
و هَل سَيَتَسَبَّبُ بِألَمِي؟
و هَل هِيَ أيضاً تَشعُرُ بي؟
أسأرحلُ واقفاً؟
و هَل هِيَ الْجَوَارِ الْكُنَّسِ؟
و عِندَما أخرُجُ مِن منزلي...
هَل تَسْتَمِرُّ بِالنَّظَرِ لِحائِطي؟
التي جاء ذِكرُها في القُرآنِ المُكَرَّمِ؟
أو كَما رَحَلَ أبي؟
أسئِلَتي كَثيرِة لا تَنْتَهي...
و أجْوِبَتُها أكْبَرُ مِنْها وَ مِنّي...
بَعْضُها مُعَقَّدٌ وَ بَعْضُها غَبِي...
وهذِه بعضُ أسبابُ قِلَّة نومي...
و جزء مِن ما يدورُ دائمًا في رأسي...
أهٰكَّذا يَشْعُرُ الحاسوبَ الكمّي؟


I look at her and there she looks back at me...
No matter where I go her eyes are following me...
Then I start thinking of Schrödinger's cat...
Wondering...
Is she really watching me?
What happens inside a black hole?
And when I don't look at her...
Is she still watching me?
When can I finally sleep?
And is she really seeing me?
Sleeping in my bed at night or for eternity?
Will it be too painful for me?
Can she also feel me?
Will I be gone standing with no pain?
Are they "the running vacuum cleaners"?
The ones mentioned in the Holly Qur'an?
And when I leave home...
Does she keep staring at my wall?
Or after suffering the way my father did?
Will I beg for it to come to an end?
Not that anybody cares, but...
My questions are so many or they could be endless...
And their answers are bigger than them and me...
And mostly it's not fair...
Some of them are complicated and some of them are absurd...
And this is a fraction of how it feels to live in my head...
Is this how a quantum computers feels like all the time?

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